The statement 'Faith without Fear' is indeed a powerful one. On my way to university recently I noticed the flyers lying around--'Islam Awareness Week'. I've been meaning to look this up over the Net many times, but only got the chance to read it after my teacher posted up this link, and I continue the quest reading up the materials from this website via Google search. It's a powerful enlightenment, fresh awakening as well as challenging my belief.
The material that I got hooked on afterwards is the section "Anti-muslim Writers". I was curious on what these writers have to say about Islam. While I do think that there are several writers listed are devout propagandists of anti-Islam, I see most of them however the true lovers of Islam and its teachings. Some of them, Tawfik Hamid, whose articles in particular 'When I asked my Muslim friend 'Why do you hate Jews?'' touched my heart and let me see how love can transcend the insurmountable unimaginable boundaries around us today. My friend, Muslim or non-Muslim, I encourage you to read up the websites and maybe see the new birth of reformed view of Islam.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Seeking refuge..
It has not been 2 months since I bought my second hand camera from one of my friends. It's Pentax K100D. To be honest, it's quite a bulky(and heavy too!) camera for a small girl like me to carry around. My first thought when deciding to buy the camera was "well, I'll get used to the weight!".
Indeed I've now. Apart from the weekly outing that I planned for pictures taking (weather dependent), and occasional outings outside of Auckland, I guess I'm not an active photographer just yet. Well, if you don't go out often, what will inspire you to take pictures anyway?!
Of my many friends who take pictures as a passionate hobby, it seems to me that landscape and street photographies are their favorite snapshots. Their pictures are mostly vivid with colors and lively too, and I absolutely fall for them! Their shots effects are contagious and tingling, they creates new persona each and every time you look at their pictures. Of course, some photoshop tips may help inducing the effects too, but great pictures if enhanced give greater pictures too!
My favourite shots will be flowers and floras. To me, they're beautiful as they are, and snapping them still is a very easy task. All that is needed is the amount of light that strikes the object of desire. Good amount of lighting, especially natural lighting, bring forth lively waves to the eyes of the audiences. It creates not only fantasy feeling, but also satisfaction over the many color blends as well as the innocence shots of these pretty little things.
With my current collection of lenses SMC Pentax f/1.4 50mm and SMC Pentax-F f/2.8 100 mm Macro, I should be able to upload some pretty pictures of the flowers found during the harsh winter season here in NZ soon.
Indeed I've now. Apart from the weekly outing that I planned for pictures taking (weather dependent), and occasional outings outside of Auckland, I guess I'm not an active photographer just yet. Well, if you don't go out often, what will inspire you to take pictures anyway?!
Of my many friends who take pictures as a passionate hobby, it seems to me that landscape and street photographies are their favorite snapshots. Their pictures are mostly vivid with colors and lively too, and I absolutely fall for them! Their shots effects are contagious and tingling, they creates new persona each and every time you look at their pictures. Of course, some photoshop tips may help inducing the effects too, but great pictures if enhanced give greater pictures too!
My favourite shots will be flowers and floras. To me, they're beautiful as they are, and snapping them still is a very easy task. All that is needed is the amount of light that strikes the object of desire. Good amount of lighting, especially natural lighting, bring forth lively waves to the eyes of the audiences. It creates not only fantasy feeling, but also satisfaction over the many color blends as well as the innocence shots of these pretty little things.
With my current collection of lenses SMC Pentax f/1.4 50mm and SMC Pentax-F f/2.8 100 mm Macro, I should be able to upload some pretty pictures of the flowers found during the harsh winter season here in NZ soon.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
To leave or not to leave
Some friends had posed this particular question to me numerous time: would you consider moving out of your home country? Leaving your home is not as simple as ABC, as some of you might know.
Lets face it. Migrating to some other country is more often than not considered "betraying" your country, depletes the country resources and often you're sneered at as a "traitor" by your fellow countrymen. You've got all the good reasons on why you'd want to be absorb into your new country, but some people just don't get it and hold firm to what they want to believe.
A question to be pondered by these pessimists is: Should we blame the others that are leaving the country for a better life? If our government cannot provide the environment and resources to these people to excel, why should we stop them from the attractions provided by the other governments?
You may argue, that by letting them being traitors, they're not participating in changing the system, but at the same time, keeping these individuals hindered them from going forward.
I see these pessimists as selfish and pathetic. Their attitudes towards migration out is blurred by disgust, and hence clouded their perception of apathy. Therefore, trying hard as we might to let them see the brighter picture of the whole situation will end up nowhere. We can talk until the cow comes home.
We must realized that all Malaysians, whether abroad or at home, can continue to have Malaysia at heart. In that, we hope that all parties can do what we can to bring change to our country. After all, leaving home is never an easy decision. One has to go through emotional stress, as well as letting go the good ole Malaysian food. All these were not done in a snap of a finger, and by putting more strain on the leaving individuals, we might lose not only their presence, but also their hearts.
So, you want to know my answer to my friends' question? I'd stay and work towards the betterment of our system back at home. And if it did not nudge the crook system even a bit after many attempts, maybe then only I'd look for other countries that welcome (not suppress) ideas and innovations.
Lets face it. Migrating to some other country is more often than not considered "betraying" your country, depletes the country resources and often you're sneered at as a "traitor" by your fellow countrymen. You've got all the good reasons on why you'd want to be absorb into your new country, but some people just don't get it and hold firm to what they want to believe.
A question to be pondered by these pessimists is: Should we blame the others that are leaving the country for a better life? If our government cannot provide the environment and resources to these people to excel, why should we stop them from the attractions provided by the other governments?
You may argue, that by letting them being traitors, they're not participating in changing the system, but at the same time, keeping these individuals hindered them from going forward.
I see these pessimists as selfish and pathetic. Their attitudes towards migration out is blurred by disgust, and hence clouded their perception of apathy. Therefore, trying hard as we might to let them see the brighter picture of the whole situation will end up nowhere. We can talk until the cow comes home.
We must realized that all Malaysians, whether abroad or at home, can continue to have Malaysia at heart. In that, we hope that all parties can do what we can to bring change to our country. After all, leaving home is never an easy decision. One has to go through emotional stress, as well as letting go the good ole Malaysian food. All these were not done in a snap of a finger, and by putting more strain on the leaving individuals, we might lose not only their presence, but also their hearts.
So, you want to know my answer to my friends' question? I'd stay and work towards the betterment of our system back at home. And if it did not nudge the crook system even a bit after many attempts, maybe then only I'd look for other countries that welcome (not suppress) ideas and innovations.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Fast, but not good enough
As I sit in front of my computer typing out my thoughts, thinking as fast as I could what's the next word to be typed, frantically re-typing typos made, and re-thinking of another better words to express my incongruent thoughts again. All these, while may take me a couple of hours to dedicate to lay down my ideas, I wouldn't have mind those hours. I believe these hours will not ceased into the nothingness, instead as a matter of obvious fact, they will contribute to make better of self-rantings and musings at the same time. Practice makes perfect, yep!
To learn from a brilliant physicist, Thomas Edison who found one way to make a lightbulb works, yet wasted many ways (thousands of hours!) on how not to get it working. It's a combination of passion and determination despite pitfalls that championed all odds. I firmly believe that!
I often complaint, many times of the day in fact, how things are moving slowly, sometimes even slower relative to what my thought experiment (Gedanken Experiment of worse case scenarios) predict they should be. I become impatient while waiting for the overdue buses to go to my destination, to the extent comparing the total time wasted waiting/hoping/sitting in the bus to the time I would have spent walking/running to the same place. I became grouchy over the additional minutes I've wasted on the bus, and regretted the thought of taking the bus in the first place. In my mind, why invent these buses route that seems to take forever? We're in the 21st century now, it should be fast! I become restless when my programs takes more than 2 minutes to run on my computer. Mind you this computer is designed to perform at a rate 3.0 GigaHz, and I expect things to complete in few miliseconds the latest. I complaint about so and so along the way, how things never improved when they're possible. I am confident that I am entitled to raise my selfish concerns with sour faces and at the same time probably increase my blood pressure and on the verge of failing my self-devised anger-management strategy.
Yet, I can't complaint on the rate at which I'm disbursing my notions now. I can't say it's because of the unsupportive surrounding (it's pretty chilly at a moment of this writing), or my ever-stagerring typos, or my inability to find words that matches, clarifies exactly what I think of now. Every second of this writing counts towards the flavor of this article. None of them wasted in pursuit of the joy of jotting down, the extreme stretch of brain-storming ideas and words, the glee in my face as I will finally end this. All I need from now on is a couple of thousands of hours to practice, tens of Hz typing rate (minus typos), full-pledge power to be passionate and enthusiastic about what I want to get across.
I found reading "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins has somewhat altered my view on how influential a religion can be to a cultured human. To the point of self-destructing oneself, rather than making a person whole, inside out. Many my fellow friends do not agree with my newly reviewed vision on how a religion works, most of whom I trust, and whom are themselves avid learners of Science and moral philosophy.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
The first entry of the year 2009
Okay..
I'm not a regular blogger, and that's shocking!
I'll skip the apologies et all, instead I'll jump to what I want to write now (sorry peeps!)
I've graduated, finally, from my BSc Hons..
I, however, chose the path of "furthering" my studies (when the truth is that I couldn't find a job that I'm passionate about out there).
I was admitted to do a research on the performance of specially design lenses for subwavelength regime (i.e. THz), a research granted by the Min. of Sci & Tech NZ to IRL (industrial research ltd) NZ, subcontracted to UoA. So, here's to make the story short--I'm going to slave myself doing experiments (mostly) for some company commercial purposes. In other words, as a PhD student, all I have to do is spent my 4 years in a lab and I better get decent results. I really hope that's what Physics brings to this wide world! (is it?)
So that gives you rough idea on what I am studying? Good! So far, even the closest family member to me did not understand on whatever it is. I see it from his fake look of interest over my answer. Some even dropped the subject in the middle of the sentence. That much of an alien Physics is to my family, I tell you. I bet my whole wages that none of my school friend ever heard of my research, and I bet you didn't care either. But anyway, I'll just continue to be naive and assume you're interested. :)
Currently I am reading Brian Greene's "The Fabric of the Cosmos". An awesome book on Physics, on the whole for laymen. I bet after you rummage through the book until it's very last page, you'll look up at the stars above and ask yourself "what is it all about?". It's a very captivating book, the writer himself is a physicist, yet describe such subtle matters of modern physics in a way that is observable in our daily lives. I must admit, having studied Physics for more than a decade now, I would never thought of his thinking lines of how space warps, how time froze, general and special relativity in daily encounterances. I bet if I have a 9 year old daughter, she would be amazed on how much she understand her surrounding just by the physics itself. It's lovely, and you should try reading it!
I'm not a regular blogger, and that's shocking!
I'll skip the apologies et all, instead I'll jump to what I want to write now (sorry peeps!)
I've graduated, finally, from my BSc Hons..
I, however, chose the path of "furthering" my studies (when the truth is that I couldn't find a job that I'm passionate about out there).
I was admitted to do a research on the performance of specially design lenses for subwavelength regime (i.e. THz), a research granted by the Min. of Sci & Tech NZ to IRL (industrial research ltd) NZ, subcontracted to UoA. So, here's to make the story short--I'm going to slave myself doing experiments (mostly) for some company commercial purposes. In other words, as a PhD student, all I have to do is spent my 4 years in a lab and I better get decent results. I really hope that's what Physics brings to this wide world! (is it?)
So that gives you rough idea on what I am studying? Good! So far, even the closest family member to me did not understand on whatever it is. I see it from his fake look of interest over my answer. Some even dropped the subject in the middle of the sentence. That much of an alien Physics is to my family, I tell you. I bet my whole wages that none of my school friend ever heard of my research, and I bet you didn't care either. But anyway, I'll just continue to be naive and assume you're interested. :)
Currently I am reading Brian Greene's "The Fabric of the Cosmos". An awesome book on Physics, on the whole for laymen. I bet after you rummage through the book until it's very last page, you'll look up at the stars above and ask yourself "what is it all about?". It's a very captivating book, the writer himself is a physicist, yet describe such subtle matters of modern physics in a way that is observable in our daily lives. I must admit, having studied Physics for more than a decade now, I would never thought of his thinking lines of how space warps, how time froze, general and special relativity in daily encounterances. I bet if I have a 9 year old daughter, she would be amazed on how much she understand her surrounding just by the physics itself. It's lovely, and you should try reading it!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Stress and me..
"F&^* this exam" are one of the thousands swear words hurled, deliberately stressed to stress (note the pun) ourselves in Hons. room. Perhaps it's the human nature to swear when they can't take it anymore, or maybe we just so like to swear a lot.
I wasn't stress for the exam until today..In fact after my sweet exam this morning, I was on the verge of celebratory mood. Well, not really in "party" mode. Then came Leo the Overlord! :P..
Don't mistaken me for blaming him, in fact I'm thankful he comment on some (and many) mistakes I've made. I just wanted to tell you he came at the wrong time, at the wrong place. I was summoned to his office, and there it all begun.
If you've felt your body temperature suddenly rose, and you feel like suffocated, that's how I exactly felt it that time. I won't go to the gory details of mind torture he gave me, but it's enough to tell you the impact on me. I was so full, that I broke down in front of him and cried like a baby. I wasn't aware it was a shameful thing to do, but all and all I care less bout em. I think he was dumbfounded, and perhaps felt a little bit guilty. He said he's sorry, and all I can say is it's not normal for me to make obvious mistakes like those. It's perhaps the many many changes and S*** (there we go again, a swear word!) to be redone, while at the same time coping with tons of assignments that swarm like it's the end of the world(well, it was the end of semester, if that connects to something.). Stupid Jess does stupid things eh?
So, after calming myself down a bit, I left the office, and returned to the office. My concern friends were asking if I am okay as I took a seat. I was trying to tell them the discussion with Leo calmly. Well, it was just for a while, I thought I could go on. I broke down again, and this time they're a bit worried, and have no idea how to deal with crying girl I suppose. So all they did was sit there and say it wasn't that bad.
Now come to think of it, as I sat down writing this blog, I felt I am being paranoid with all these high expectations that I build up for myself. Don't know why I am pushing myself this hard, and when things get really hard, all I can do is cry. Twas stupid, and I think it's STUPID JESS' nature to do STUPID things.
Some people do nasty things when they're stressed, and if I in anyway being nasty to you in the coming few days (forecasting at least 2 weeks from now), then I apologise in advance. I'll try to stick with crying instead of cursing and swearing at people. I'd rather ashame myself, rather than make people hurt.
I wasn't stress for the exam until today..In fact after my sweet exam this morning, I was on the verge of celebratory mood. Well, not really in "party" mode. Then came Leo the Overlord! :P..
Don't mistaken me for blaming him, in fact I'm thankful he comment on some (and many) mistakes I've made. I just wanted to tell you he came at the wrong time, at the wrong place. I was summoned to his office, and there it all begun.
If you've felt your body temperature suddenly rose, and you feel like suffocated, that's how I exactly felt it that time. I won't go to the gory details of mind torture he gave me, but it's enough to tell you the impact on me. I was so full, that I broke down in front of him and cried like a baby. I wasn't aware it was a shameful thing to do, but all and all I care less bout em. I think he was dumbfounded, and perhaps felt a little bit guilty. He said he's sorry, and all I can say is it's not normal for me to make obvious mistakes like those. It's perhaps the many many changes and S*** (there we go again, a swear word!) to be redone, while at the same time coping with tons of assignments that swarm like it's the end of the world(well, it was the end of semester, if that connects to something.). Stupid Jess does stupid things eh?
So, after calming myself down a bit, I left the office, and returned to the office. My concern friends were asking if I am okay as I took a seat. I was trying to tell them the discussion with Leo calmly. Well, it was just for a while, I thought I could go on. I broke down again, and this time they're a bit worried, and have no idea how to deal with crying girl I suppose. So all they did was sit there and say it wasn't that bad.
Now come to think of it, as I sat down writing this blog, I felt I am being paranoid with all these high expectations that I build up for myself. Don't know why I am pushing myself this hard, and when things get really hard, all I can do is cry. Twas stupid, and I think it's STUPID JESS' nature to do STUPID things.
Some people do nasty things when they're stressed, and if I in anyway being nasty to you in the coming few days (forecasting at least 2 weeks from now), then I apologise in advance. I'll try to stick with crying instead of cursing and swearing at people. I'd rather ashame myself, rather than make people hurt.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
conGRADUATION on your BIG DAY!
I graduated today..Bachelor of Science, at the Ceremony 5 1.15pm, graduand number 139, at Auckland Town Hall..
After years of stint and tough fight (literally on exam days!!), finally I was awarded with this piece of paper that they claimed to have lifespan of 500 years.. So, somewhat I can imagine my legacy and saga continue for my future generations..
It was a good sunny day, and a happy occasion with close friends that I am truly grateful for. To acknowledge them..here goes the list(on no particular order or preferences--actually I take that back, it depends on who comes to my mind first)
1) My Dudu as always: She's there when things really get out of control, and when I don't have pocket to put my stuff. And yes, for the 3 beautiful SUNFLOWERS!! It's like getting a proposal from Jane to get married upon seeing the bouquet! (oh! don't worry bout spoiling the feeling, cause i foresee a diamond ring to go with a bouquet of flowers from Jane)
2) Asline, QiSu and Ah Jie: Endurance and relentless effort put through the 8 hours night sleep in the bus, and flying back down at wee hour in the morning. I am truthfully touched, not many, if any, would do things like they've done to me now. To Aslina, HAPPY GRADUATION too, indeed it's the best choice ever--SPRING GRADUATION! Ingatan tulus ikhlas and penghargaan to the 3 of you!!!
3) Post-Graduate Physics 2008: Aaron, Keith, Ka Fai, Jason, Simon, Katie, Steffen, Sarah, Joe--This year will always be memorable to me, not only meeting awesome PHYSICISTS like you all, but also the warm friendship bond we've! And thanks to the grad present too..totally kick ASS man!
4) Leo and Sam: Okay, these two guys are often serious when it comes to physics, but really they're real nice people! And pictures to follow as soon as I uploaded my memory card contents to let you know just what I mean by PHYSICISTS:Behind the scenes..
5) My ex-classmates since 2005: Keith, Elliot, Alastair--I am fortunate when it comes to having friends that welcomed me like me, right from the start of the day I stepped into uni..
6) Random people at Gina's Pizza & Bar: For the excellent Italian food, for the excellent service, and very friendly people working there--caught me by surprise with the candle on the ice cream, with a song that tunes like birthday song, but I reckoned it's saying something like HAPPY GRADUATION! And those patrons who actually clapped and congratulated me.. I'm very indeed touched!
7) My Juniors: Sarah and Wanie, thank you for the time and wishes and flower too! I'm..speechless I shall say!
8) To the absent friends and family: Had you been here with me on my BIG DAY, I'm even more elated. But it's the thoughts that matter the most, and I am channelling my thanks and gratitude in somewhat a phsycic way as well :)
My mission next is to upload these pictures here, Facebook, Friendster!
After years of stint and tough fight (literally on exam days!!), finally I was awarded with this piece of paper that they claimed to have lifespan of 500 years.. So, somewhat I can imagine my legacy and saga continue for my future generations..
It was a good sunny day, and a happy occasion with close friends that I am truly grateful for. To acknowledge them..here goes the list(on no particular order or preferences--actually I take that back, it depends on who comes to my mind first)
1) My Dudu as always: She's there when things really get out of control, and when I don't have pocket to put my stuff. And yes, for the 3 beautiful SUNFLOWERS!! It's like getting a proposal from Jane to get married upon seeing the bouquet! (oh! don't worry bout spoiling the feeling, cause i foresee a diamond ring to go with a bouquet of flowers from Jane)
2) Asline, QiSu and Ah Jie: Endurance and relentless effort put through the 8 hours night sleep in the bus, and flying back down at wee hour in the morning. I am truthfully touched, not many, if any, would do things like they've done to me now. To Aslina, HAPPY GRADUATION too, indeed it's the best choice ever--SPRING GRADUATION! Ingatan tulus ikhlas and penghargaan to the 3 of you!!!
3) Post-Graduate Physics 2008: Aaron, Keith, Ka Fai, Jason, Simon, Katie, Steffen, Sarah, Joe--This year will always be memorable to me, not only meeting awesome PHYSICISTS like you all, but also the warm friendship bond we've! And thanks to the grad present too..totally kick ASS man!
4) Leo and Sam: Okay, these two guys are often serious when it comes to physics, but really they're real nice people! And pictures to follow as soon as I uploaded my memory card contents to let you know just what I mean by PHYSICISTS:Behind the scenes..
5) My ex-classmates since 2005: Keith, Elliot, Alastair--I am fortunate when it comes to having friends that welcomed me like me, right from the start of the day I stepped into uni..
6) Random people at Gina's Pizza & Bar: For the excellent Italian food, for the excellent service, and very friendly people working there--caught me by surprise with the candle on the ice cream, with a song that tunes like birthday song, but I reckoned it's saying something like HAPPY GRADUATION! And those patrons who actually clapped and congratulated me.. I'm very indeed touched!
7) My Juniors: Sarah and Wanie, thank you for the time and wishes and flower too! I'm..speechless I shall say!
8) To the absent friends and family: Had you been here with me on my BIG DAY, I'm even more elated. But it's the thoughts that matter the most, and I am channelling my thanks and gratitude in somewhat a phsycic way as well :)
My mission next is to upload these pictures here, Facebook, Friendster!
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