Dejected. Angry. Frustrated.
If you've been rejected before, then the above three items are the emotions that makes us feel, well, rejected. I'm feeling a bit down at the moment, or I should say for the last 2 days. I maybe or maybe not reveal what are the things that bothering me, but I can assure you these are the moments when I feel even more desperate for God to grant to me patience.
Well, to start with I'm not really a very patient person. I usually make decisions on impulse, or blink if that suits me better, sometime act recklessly with myself. In a sum, you'd call me quirky.
Two things that are important in our lives (well, I believed anyway); dream and money. Tonnes of these, the better off our lives are. One of my dreams has been squashed and I'm fully loaded with huge debt (yes, money debt!). And those two things are beyond my control.
What do I do in time like this? My heart is heavy that it almost felt like it doesn't want to beat anymore. My head is, well, unorganized. Cluttered with the what-ifs and it's now reaching the point where it's rational to start a morally wrong blame game. My body refused to take enough liquid and food to keep everyday thing going.
Where will this lead me?! :(. God, grace me with some strength in this trial time.
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Dearest jess, there are a few moments in life that you have to face with patience. lots and lots of patience. Look at the silver lining my dear. You still have your youth and health, your family and friends not forgetting that knowledge u've earned from studying. It's just another bump on the road. Work hard and keep on praying. It'll all work out sooner or later. My best regards to you... =)
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